When you can't stop getting hyper no matter how hard you try and keep reverting to your old self because your problem with getting hyper has been a problem all your life and while it may be better then it once was it never completely goes away so you still annoy people both IRL and online which serves as reminders that it's still a problem at 17 years old and it causes you to feel like you don't have many friends:

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